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  Freefall

  RaeAnne Thayne

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  Published by Silhouette Books

  America's Publisher of Contemporary Romance

  It was done. They were married—Sophie was his wife.

  Thomas's stomach clenched at the word. How far had he come, from a Coast Guard chopper pilot content with his bachelor life to a man with a wife and ready-made family?

  And how did Sophie feel about all of this? He couldn't read her at all. She veiled her emotions behind a bright smile.

  She looked radiant, lovely. Demure, in an un-Sophie-like way, like a spear of sunlight cutting through the water on a gray day.

  For one crazy second, he wished this was a regular wedding, that they were two people in love preparing to begin their lives' journey together. The fierceness of his desire startled him.

  "She's a beautiful bride," someone murmured. "You're a lucky man, Thomas."

  Lucky? He thought about the word. It shouldn't have fit, given the circumstances, but somehow it did.

  He was lucky.

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  RAEANNE THAYNE

  lives in a graceful old Victorian nestled in the rugged mountains of northern Utah, along with her husband and two young children. Her books have won numerous honors, including several Readers' Choice Awards from Romantic Times and a RITA® Award nomination by the Romances Writers of America. RaeAnne loves to hear from readers. She can be reached through her Web site at www.raeannethayne.com or at P.O. Box 6682, North Logan, UT 84341.

  Contents

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Epilogue

  Chapter 1

  As final resting places go, the El Carmelito cemetery in Pacific Grove, California, was a beautiful place to spend eternity.

  The wild sea off Point Piños crashed just a few hundred yards away, wind-gnarled Monterey cypress provided shade and serenity and a small herd of blacktail deer browsed among the grave markers.

  Under other circumstances, Sophie Beaumont might have found some small comfort that her sister would be laid to rest here in exactly the kind of place Shelly had loved best. But she couldn't find anything remotely resembling comfort. Not yet. Not when the shock and grief of losing her twin so abruptly raged through her like that fierce ocean battering the rocks.

  She hated funerals, she always had, and this one was by far the worst. Sophie swallowed hard as she looked at those elegant matching coffins waiting to be lowered into the ground—one starkly, horribly empty, one containing Shelly's battered remains.

  She thought of the burial ritual she had seen a few months earlier in rural China, where mourners wore colorful clothing and celebrated the deceased's life with an exuberant funeral parade. Or the Jamaican way, where the families of the deceased dressed in their Sunday best and feasted for nine days. Shelly would have vastly preferred that to this cold, solemn ceremony.

  Two small, sniffly whimpers on either side of her dragged her from her thoughts. Poor lambs. Poor bewildered little orphaned lambs. Her sister's own twins, Zach and Zoe, just five years old, didn't know what to make of this somber service. All they knew was their mother and father were both gone and that their comfortable, secure world had changed forever.

  "Shh," their older sister, Alison, whispered to the twins. Her green eyes, far wiser than their ten years, looked at Sophie solemnly as if waiting for her to do something. Sophie gazed back helplessly, not sure what her niece expected of her. Finally, with a heavy sigh, Ali pulled her younger brother into her lap to console him.

  Sophie winced. If she wasn't so tired, she would have thought of that. Or at least she wanted to think so.

  Following Ali's example, she pulled Zoe into her own lap. The little girl snuggled against her with a few more sniffles, her cheek pressed against the black leather of the slim little blazer Sophie had picked up a few months ago at a market in Belarus. It was far too hot for leather, unexpectedly warm for a cloudy November day on the peninsula, but Sophie had had nothing else with her suitable for a funeral—and no time to find anything else—when Thomas had finally tracked her down two days earlier in Morocco. She'd been traveling nonstop since his call and barely made it to Monterey a few hours earlier, in time to shower and change out of her traveling clothes.

  The preacher was droning on about walking through the valley of the shadow of death, about ashes to ashes, dust to dust. She wanted to listen but the words seemed hazy, surreal.

  This couldn't be Shelly he was talking about in that dry, lifeless tone. Her sister had been funny and bighearted, passionate about her children and deeply in love with her husband.

  Whether the son of a bitch deserved it or not.

  Loud, dramatic sobbing down the row of chairs cut through the minister's words like a chainsaw, and Zoe sniffled louder in her arms. Though she felt small and mean for it, Sophie wanted to stalk down the row of mourners and give her mother a good, hard slap. Couldn't Sharon tell she was upsetting the children with her wailing and carrying on?

  Of course she couldn't, she answered her own question. And even if Sharon knew, she probably wouldn't care.

  The minister droned on until Sophie wanted to scream at him to stop, that he obviously didn't know anything about Shelly if he thought his words carried any meaning about her life.

  Zach sniffled again on Ali's lap and Sophie felt heat brush her shoulder. Not a touch, just a stirring of air. Automatically, her gaze shifted to the man sitting on the other side of her niece. Thomas Canfield, brother to Shelly's husband Peter, had wrapped an arm around Ali and pulled her close, Zach and all.

  He looked solid and reassuring, his shoulders impossibly broad in his Coast Guard dress blues, and for one insane moment she wanted nothing more than to burrow her head against his chest as if she were five years old just like the twins.

  Over the childrens' heads, their gazes met. Not a trace of warmth showed in those icy blue eyes. They were diamond-hard and so bitterly cold she shivered, despite her leather jacket and the heat of the afternoon.

  She forced her attention back to the minister, willing herself not to think about how those wintry eyes had once blazed with hot need and breathtaking tenderness.

  A few more words, another prayer, and it was done. As the last amen floated away on the sea breeze, mourners stood and began to talk softly among themselves. Sophie stayed seated, feeling numb, her limbs leaden, listless.

  "Is it over?" Zoe asked, her lisp making the last word sound like "ov-oh."

  She hugged the little girl close. "Yes, sugar. It's over."

  "I don't want Mommy and Daddy to be in Heaven." The small voice nearly broke her heart.

  "I know. Oh, honey, I know."

  Someone with more experience around young children than she probably would have added something wise and comforting but Sophie drew a complete blank. She was still trying to figure out what to say when Sharon glided to the
m, weeping copiously. Not even her thick waterproof mascara could hold up under those conditions. Black splotches underlined her eyes, pooling in the wrinkles she fought so hard against.

  "Oh, Sophie. Isn't this the most terrible thing that's ever happened? My poor girl. My poor baby girl. I never thought one of my girls would die before me. Oh, I don't know how I'll bear it." Sharon began to weep again and the barrel-chested man she'd brought along—another Earl, wasn't it?—handed her a handkerchief and patted her awkwardly on the shoulder.

  Sophie should be more compassionate toward her mother. She knew it but still she fought a wave of resentment that even now Sharon couldn't stand to have anyone else be the center of attention. Not even her dead child or her suddenly orphaned grandchildren.

  The instinct to flee was almost overwhelming. For one wild moment, Sophie wanted to grab her equipment and her suitcase and hop a plane to any destination, particularly one on the other side of the globe. A place where nobody knew her, where she could be just another anonymous face in the crowd hiding behind a camera lens.

  Since she couldn't leave, at least she should be able to crawl into a bed somewhere—anywhere—and sleep for the next forty-eight hours until she lost this jet lag and could begin to cope with the storm of emotions that had buffeted her since Thomas's late-night phone call in Morocco.

  Ten years ago she wouldn't have needed a phone call to tell her something had happened to Shelly. For most of their life, they had shared an invisible bond, one of those weird psychic twin connections that defied logic or words. When Shelly had broken her leg jumping off the swings in second grade, Sophie had crumpled to the floor of her classroom howling in pain. When Sophie had sliced a finger cutting vegetables in Home Ec, Shelly hadn't been able to finish a test in English class because her own finger throbbed too badly to write.

  But that was all in the past. In the last ten years, Sophie had done everything she could to sever that bond, to put as much distance as possible between her and her twin, psychic or otherwise.

  Obviously she had succeeded beyond her wildest dream. She hated that she had known nothing of the car accident that had killed Shelly—of that final terrible plunge off the soaring cliffs of Big Sur, of the impact so horrendous Peter had been flung from the Mercedes, his body dashed on the rocks below and then carried away by the violent sea.

  Shelly had been dead three days before Thomas finally managed to learn what magazine she was on assignment for and could contact the photo editor and track her down.

  Three days where she had been wandering from town to town, village to village. Eating, sleeping, laughing. Living her life just as always, with no clue her sister was gone.

  She wanted to stand at that grave in this beautiful cemetery by the ocean and weep for the past and the physical and emotional chasm between them at the end.

  "Can we go home now?"

  Zoe's question wrenched at her heart, filled her mouth with shame. She was no better than Sharon. How could she stand here feeling so sorry for herself when these children had lost everything?

  Home. She thought of Peter and Shelly's house on Seventeen Mile Drive, that huge estate in the gated Del Monte Forest that should have seemed elegant and cold.

  For all its grandeur, Shelly had managed to make Seal Point feel like a home. That was just so Shelly. Her sister had plenty of experience building nests wherever they lived, from dingy apartments to run-down trailers and even the back seat of Sharon's old Toronado when they had spent a summer living out of it.

  There were mourners to greet, polite conventions to follow, but she realized the children were close to the breaking point. They were her responsibility now and nothing else mattered.

  "Yes, sugar. I'll take you home. Alison, are you ready?"

  Her niece nodded tightly, and held on to Zach's hand. She led the little entourage toward her rental car. They had almost reached it when Thomas slipped away from his father's side and headed toward them.

  "You're leaving?"

  How did he make those two words sound like an accusation, a denunciation?

  She straightened her shoulders. "The children are tired. I think they've had enough. They need to be in their comfort zone."

  A muscle flexed in his jaw and he looked as if he wanted to say something, but he finally nodded. "I'll be along as soon as I can."

  "That's not necessary," she answered coolly. "I'm sure the children and I will be fine."

  "I'll see you at the house."

  She didn't have the energy left to tell him he was the last person on earth she wanted to spend any time with today, so she just nodded and climbed into the rental car.

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  "It was a very nice service, don't you think? I mean, as far as these things go."

  Tom glanced in the rearview mirror of the Jaguar. His father gazed silently out the window at the churning sea as they drove past Asilomar toward Country Club Gate. His Savile Row tie was slightly crooked, his silver hair a little mussed—things William Canfield never would have tolerated in better days. Maura McMurray sat beside him, solid and dependable as always, sympathy creasing her plump, no-nonsense features.

  "Yes," Tom answered the nurse. "Peter would have been pleased to see so many people there."

  Did that sound petty? he wondered. Yeah, probably, even though of course he didn't mean it that way. He sighed. Nobody could say his and Peter's relationship had been an easy one. He had loved his younger brother but they hadn't seen eye-to-eye on many things.

  They had always wanted different things. Peter, like their father, had thrived on the influence and power of being one of the Canfields of Seal Point. He had loved the social scene, moving and shaking with the other leading families of the peninsula.

  Tom had no patience for the thin, transparent superficiality of it all. Maybe that's one of the reasons he and his brother hadn't exactly gotten along. Peter—and William, for that matter—had never been able to understand the choices he had made with his life.

  For all the good those choices had done him.

  "I was glad to see Mrs. Canfield's sister made it in time for the funeral," Maura cut through his thoughts. "Although I have to admit it gave me quite a start when I first saw her sitting there with the children. Uncanny, the way the two of them look so much alike, isn't it?"

  He made a noncommittal sound. It always surprised him when people made that observation. Certainly there were similarities between the sisters. They were twins, after all. They shared the same hair color, similar facial features, same slim, willowy build.

  Both were strikingly beautiful, he had to admit, but his sister-in-law's appeal had been soft, gentle, like some impressionistic watercolor. Sophie, on the other hand, was wild and sensual—bold, vivid colors splashed onto textured canvas. Long tousled blond curls and sinful eyes and kiss-me lips.

  "The children seemed taken with her, considering how seldom they've seen her."

  "She stays connected with them," he murmured. Whatever else her failings, he had to give credit to Sophie for that. No matter where she traveled, she had always tried to stay in touch by phone or e-mail and she sent the children small gifts from all the exotic locales stamped on her passport.

  "I suppose she'll be off again now."

  "I don't know her plans but I'm sure she will." Sophie was the queen of the hit-and-run visit.

  "Well, I hope she stays a while for the children. The poor dears will need all the family they can find right now. How awful for them to lose both their mother and father at once."

  Maura's sympathy didn't seem to require a response. He glanced in the rearview mirror again and noticed his father playing with the power windows, rolling them up and down, up and down.

  Maura competently distracted him with a pat on the hand and a small hand mirror she pulled from her bag, and William laughed and pulled a face at himself, his eyes scrunched up and his jaw sagging.

  "Have you thought anymore about what you'll do now?" Maura asked.

  Tom co
uld feel tension grip his shoulders again with bony claws. Just thinking about all the choices he would have to make in the coming days made his chest ache.

  "No," he answered tersely.

  "I don't mean to push you. I would just like to know if I'll be needing to look for another position."

  He frowned at the nurse. "Another position? Why on earth would you look for a new position?"

  Maura cast a sidelong glance at his father, who was oblivious to their conversation as usual, then she met Thomas's gaze in the mirror. "You're going to have a big burden on your shoulders in the coming months, caring for the children and all and taking over your family's business concerns," she answered quietly. "I thought you might want to reconsider Mr. Canfield's living arrangements."

  He didn't even want to think about this. Not today. "I'm not putting him in a nursing home, Maura. He'll stay at Seal Point as long as he can. That's his home, the place where he's most comfortable. You won't need to look for another position."

  "It won't be easy for you, Lieutenant Canfield."

  That grim fact had been crystal clear the minute his team had responded to that rescue call and he had recognized Peter's half-submerged Mercedes and Shelly's lifeless body still inside.

  "I'll just have to try to do what's best for everyone." The trick was going to be figuring out what the hell that was.

  The rest of the drive passed in silence and a few moments later they reached the curved iron gates of Seal Point, the home of his childhood and the place Peter and Shelly had lived with their children. With a press of the remote control, the gates slid soundlessly open.

  Inside the house, he helped his father change out of his suit, unknotting his tie and unbuttoning his shirt as if William were a child.

  "You're a good boy, Peter," his father said at one point, patting him awkwardly on the head as if he were ten years old again hitting a winning home run. Tom didn't bother to correct him. What was the use? Despite the funeral service, his father probably wouldn't even realize Peter—his golden son, the favorite—was gone.